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Hahahaha why did i read that i knew it would upset me and now here i am
______ “but why” Greyjoy
I’ve been panicking about making this post for a while now and I’m so overwhelmed and terrified and I can’t think of anything else to do right now so I guess I’ll do it.
There’s a pretty good chance that I might end up homeless soon.
The long and short of it is that my husband and I have been having some pretty terrible marital issues for the past year or so and It’s been getting progressively worse. I’ve been doing my best to salvage what I can and be encouraging when he needs encouraging and staying out of his way when he wants to be left alone, but what it all comes down to is that I’ve spent the last few years being severely emotionally abused and hurt and now I’m being thrown out.
It’s gotten to the point where my husband has been threatening to throw me out.
I don’t have anything of my own. I have a computer, a few electronics, some at supplies, my clothes, and the money in my paypal (which isn’t much) and I’m absolutely terrified.
I can’t go back to living with my parents because (as some of you know) my mother is extremely mentally unstable and my father is emotionally and physically and verbally abusive.
My friends have offered a temporary stay but I have an overwhelming feeling of guilt & that I am burdensome (even though they have reassured me that I’m not - this is just my own personal fear and confusion talking) and so I really do not want to push myself onto them.
I cannot afford a place of my own and I am not in a place where I can shack up with strangers who I don’t know or trust, and I’m feeling very horrible and scared and empty and confused and lonely and unloved right now. I even feel sick writing this because I feel as though I am at my lowest low and I do not deserve to even be making a post like this, but I am really at my wits end and ive been crying for a few hours now and I’ve thrown up twice due to stress and I’m just… really fucked up.
This is the second abusive relationship I’ve suffered through in my life and I’m feeling pretty broken and terrified and helpless and worthless.
I know that this is a huge thing to ask of the general public, but if I could get a little money together, I might be able to take care of myself for a while, and maybe, just maybe figure something out where I won’t have to give up everything I’ve worked so hard for and give up friendships I’ve made through these past years to go back to living with my incredibly abusive parents.
If you feel like you want to donate anything… even a penny, even like fifty cents, my paypal is:
If I can maybe scrounge together a little nest egg, I might be able to keep myself safe. I might be able to like… hopefully not self destruct. IDK how else to explain it. I’m just lost. I’m scared and lost and really, really really messed up.
I don’t know how much longer I have in this house, but… yknow. I’ll keep you updated.
Again I’m sorry for even posting this, I know it’s ridiculous and farfetched but I feel like it’s my last resort and I’m just… really scared.